Penman grew up with a father who was traumatized by his experience
as a cop in Detroit in the post-"Crack Boom" era (when a once
glorious city fell apart). His father constantly threatened to kill
himself. He shot his gun in the house. He threatened to bring John
to "little boy jail" if he didn't behave the way his father wanted.
John's Father was transformed by his untreated PTSD into an abusive
person. John was forced to be his therapist (as a child) but
eventually had to cut him out of his life. Here's the story of
trauma creating trauma creating trauma (the vicious
people who love us,
transforming pain into love,
cutting / self-harm (TW),
being your parent's therapist,
trusting your intuition,
plus LOTS more!